Manchester Arena Bombing, How this tragedy makes me felt broken

Tuesday morning around 5 am Indonesian time I woke up. After a while, I checked my twitter and suddenly felt broken :(. My timeline full of breaking news about an explosion in Ariana Grande Live Concert. Imagining how happy the people after the concert, the excitement, and the euphoria still on fire in their mind, then suddenly "boom", there is an explosion, happiness suddenly changes to be scary, dread, tear, screaming and death. :(

I pray for the victim and family, may God give them reassurance and determination. I also pray for everyone outside there that have a mission as self-suicide bomb attack, have hatred in their heart to kill anyone, hopefully, they repent the way they think, may God changes and soften their heart. I pray for peace on this earth. amin.

#170511 Notes

It is around 2 months to go, the deadline for my scholarship application. There are so many things I have to prepare. I have chosen my course and my university destination, but I have not applied it yet. The hardest thing to complete from all the requirement is recommendation letter. I have to contact my lecture in university again, my thesis advisor. I never contact her again after my undergraduate graduation. I hope she still remembers me if I call her this week. I should contact her soon. Other documents I must prepare now are motivation letter and curriculum vitae in European standard form. I hope I can finish it this week. It feels relieved I already had IELTS score which is already met the university requirement, even though still less 0.5 points for scholarship requirement. oh, God please help and lead me. I need Your miracles.

 The more I realize about the deadline the more I got panic and confused.But, I won't give up. I will try my best. Getting master scholarship in abroad is my dream since I was in junior high school. I already tried to forget this dream for 7 years, but it just made my life story become messed up, I can't focus to build a relationship :(, or stay in an office and just focused on my career. Nonetheless, I think it will be worth if I try it, no matter it will succeed or not, at least I try to pursue it with the best of me. So, let us try and do the best.

PS. for someone that I know so well and have the same dream also, please don't give up. Maybe this is our fate from our God. The time we had shared is a bliss for me. so keep moving on for our dream. :)

Bliss on twenty something - 2017 Trip to Thailand

"Travel is never a matter of money but of courage"

2017 Trip, I said this trip as a wonderful trip, because I could watch my fav band, Coldplay, had a live concert in a country which is it was included in my bucket list of the country I should travel during my life, Thailand. As I imagined, Thailand is amazing. I love the street food, cheap fresh-juices, everything on Thai Seven Eleven, and one great thing, the hospitality of Thai people. Bangkok is quite same with Jakarta for weather and traffic, but still, I found there is something special on it which fascinated me to visit Bangkok again in future. I hope I could.  Coldplay, A Head Full of Dreams Tour, the best thing I got from this trip. I do love Coldplay. Their songs help me to be revived from my depression, my disappointment from broken promises, and my fault to myself. It just likes earlier birthday gift of mine also. It full filled my dream also, my bucket list, watch a live concert of Coldplay at least once a time in my life, next is John Mayer. 

This trip I said crazy trip also because in 4 days I visited 3 countries with one of my best friend, Ndari, Malaysia (KL), Thailand (Bangkok & Pattaya), Singapore (Changi). It was our first overseas trip. Yay! We did it Ndari-san, thank you for your endless energy. We still have a wide smile, a loud giggle in the middle of the night on Walking Street in Pattaya. You know what I mean. Too much unpredictable incident and scene ne? (Japanese style to ask). Haha.. From all of this, I really feel grateful for what I had and experienced now. The journey of my life still continues, struggling not finish yet, tears still haunt me sometimes. Nevertheless, I have to live my life, travelling as much I can, and work hard and smart to achieve every dream I have. Ganbatte miseru yo!

For complete gallery of my trip, please check the link below. :) Cheers...

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